For the last day or so, I have had a registration page open for a race I want to do...when it was about for me to confirm my registration and pay up, I froze...the page is still there, waiting for confirmation...I know I want to do this race, I'm going to do it, but once I pay for it - that's it. It's like being written in the great book above. There's no going back, I will have to go forward and train, train, train, and then begin my training for it. Even now, I see the tab...and I hesitate...it's a race I know I am going to suffer in...I'm not afraid to suffer...I just don't know how to prepare myself to suffer this much. This race is for people who are so much tougher than I am. I feel like a little kid wanting to play with the adults. I wonder is this anxiety a survival technique I should be listening to? Or, could it be that my body enjoys the life of leisure, and is really super lazy?
On the flip side...I like the challenge. I'm not fast, I know that, but I like to get the job done. In a way suffering allows me to meet myself in a different setting...a quiet place, and at times a dark place. I want to try to accomplish something greater than my ability.
Well now that I have hyped it up like mad...I better just sign up for it, right?
1 comment:
Yes - GO FOR IT!! Wish I could be there to see you win. (Or at least try to win. =)
Post a Comment