My Life is Over

It snowed today. Didn't the snow just melt. Why oh why did it have to snow...I thought Autumn and I had a plan...she was going to slowly ease me into winter this year. I had a plan to enjoy winter this year, as I do every year and every year my plans fail and I hate winter and go into a deep dark place where no amount of pills can help. Maybe this year I will take real pills instead of pretending tic-tacs and Mentos are my medicine. I'm not emotionally ready for this winter...Logan is a freezing winter landscape...and I love winter landscapes when they are oil painted or photographed...but not the real thing...that's what TV's are for to enjoy the look of winter. Okay so I need to get ready a lot sooner than planned to enjoy the worst time of the year. You know that song with the chorus going' it's the most wonderful time of the year' it's a winter/Christmas song...well that song is winter propaganda!!! During indian summer do you hear carols? Songs praising summer or indian summer? No of course not because people don't need to be reminded! Of course late spring, summer, late summer are the best time of the year...no songs needed. The Winter Group is pushing their propaganda all over us! Who do they think they are fooling? Skiers, Snowboards, and the weird freaks who think that snow shoeing is a sport...I hate to break it to you guys snow shoeing is walking, but just on-top of snow...now I know what you are thinking...walking is an olympic sport so if walking is a sport then snowshoeing should be a sport because it is walking on snow. Well the olympics are wrong...if they don't have lacrosse as a sport then walking defiantly should not be a sport. I can't breath! Okay okay I will calm down and meditate on how I should and can enjoy my depression due to the lack of sun, green, strolls, creeks, swimming outside, tans, happiness, and whatever winter takes with it. I can do other stuff...like be a freak who snow shoes...which I actually do enjoy...maybe Fisher and I can do that everyday...or maybe I can cross country ski with the boy. Hmmm...maybe my life isn't over yet...maybe just maybe there is a shot that I may actually love this winter...then again maybe not. The good and bad thing about this experiment is that I have no choice. It is coming and it is coming fast and sooner than expected. I of course will let you know how it all goes. I think I see the sun now...and maybe the snow will be gone soon.